Off to Korea at 2125 hrs, will be back on the 5th, KE641 at 2115. Haha see you then (: Won't be contactable. Korean Airways! Pls pray that I will recover from my sicknesses, thank you! Will miss you! ):

K-O
Janel 0
Work+Sickness 10

Knocked Out. Slept like a log. Sleep-dinner-sleep. Then it's lit and back to sleep. NSC and IJSO competitions tomorrow, hopefully I won't sleep then. Tired, and my nose is on a marathon.

Israel sem tomorrow too. Off to Korea in 4 days.

I give up on lit. Nothing seems to be going right, my phone is screwed ):

I'm sorry.

D-r-o-w-i-n-g in work, falling sick and my elbow is weird. Might get it checked tomorrow, hopefully it's not fractured.

Why is so much work piled unto us this week ):
Not fair.

To massive grumblers who assume their life sucks:

Today before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who can’t speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who’s crying out to God for a companion.

Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven.

Before you complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they’re barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn’t clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down
Put a smile on your face and thank God you’re alive and still around.

Life is a gift
Live it
Enjoy it
Celebrate it

EMBRACE IT

And FULFILL IT

Basic social cues

What happened to the please and thank yous?
What happened to social awareness?
What happened to "you before I"?
What happened to urgency?
What happened to respect?
What happened to accommodation?
What happened to simple things?

Why are people blasting loud noises in public transport?
Why are people being selfish?
Why are people thinking about their own good, not the common good?
Why are people not being appreciative?
Why are there random chit-chatterings when someone in higher authority is speaking?
Why are people resorting to violence to solve things?


Welcome to the 21st century, where everything degenerates. Ew, what a gross world.
Singaporeans are losing it.
I'm planning to keep my manners, thank you very much. Not going to follow the blind masses.

I won't, I refuse to. Goes against my own principles.

Wake up people. Let's be real, can we?


And Manchester United lost ):

A call to return.
A call to keep pure.
A call to obey.

A promise, a vow, I need your help to help me keep.
So there won't be
A downward spiral

Coming back
To the heart
Of worship

The passion has to return
Miss the times when I was at my highest
I need to go back
I want to go back

Keep my eyes focused.
I will.

--xx--

Gah, today hasn't been nice.
But you know what
There's still love (:

NAPFA 5 stations report:

(4) 2.4km: 14:17
(5) Sit-ups: 48
(5) Inclined Pull Ups: 21
(5) Shuttle Run: 10.4
(5) Sit and reach: 53
(5) Standing Broad Jump: 198

(29) out of a possible (30) points. Missed A for 2.4 by 6 secs, ugh.

Sleepy the whole day.
Buckfullerene and SWCNTs! C60 allotropes are cool! Nanotech toilet bowls (what I said last year in VIP interview)

It's going to strike midnight soon and here I am, taking a five minute break from Imagineering while waiting for Yuwei to update the powerpoint file. I'm getting sleepy. I need some music to survive. Sadly, I can't find all my earphones because I have absolutely no idea where my mom put them and all my stuff is flying over the house.

I miss my room, I miss having a place I can call my own. I miss having my own bed. Dang, I only owned my new bed for a week, before I had to give it up again. This week is going to be a killer, and so will the next week. I think I'll have to skip training, again. I've been so busy. Busy. Overworked. Tired. This is called, the " Term 2 overkill syndrome"

Monstrosities of life.

Cause when I'm weak, You make me strong
When I'm blind, You shine Your light on me
Cause I'll never get by living on my own ability
How refreshing to know You don't need me
How amazing to know that You want me
So I'll stand on Your truth, and I'll fight with Your strength
Until You bring the victory, by the power of Christ in me

--Casting Crowns, In Me

Well on the other hand, I love my Bio teacher & Chinese teacher the most (: They've been really encouraging the past few months. Lao shi saved my mom from screwing me about my chinese grades. I'm definitely going to make a better effort to improve (note the word better: because I already wanted to improve from the start of this year) I guess a C5 is a start, if I work harder I know I can get a B, hooray.

And I can continue trumping people in Bio and Chem =) NAPFA 5 stations tomorrow, better get a perfect score. Haven't been training, but shall look at my luck.

My Future Decided
Hillsong United

Verse 1
You hold the future in your hands
You know my dreams and you have a plan
And as you light my way, I’ll follow you

Pre-chorus
My eyes on all of the above
My soul secure in all you’ve done
My minds made up
And you are the only one for me

Chorus
Jesus, savior, in my life you are everything
My future decided, I will praise your name
And I know that I am, I am yours
Yeah, I know that that I am, I am yours

Verse 2
You hold the earth in your command
You are the rock on which I stand
And as I live each day, I’ll follow you

Bridge
Aren’t afraid, aren’t ashamed Lord we know who we are
We are your people and we won’t be silent
Unified hear us cry at the top of our lungs
You our God and we will NOT BE SHAKEN!

My God is big, and I'm proud to proclaim I love him! Thank you Jesus =)
Society corrupts. But I will not be shaken. Not be shaken, Janel. I won't.

Thank you to the following groups of people for making my birthday special!

On saturday at swensens: Joey, Alex, Rachel Chai, Jolynn, Vivian (: Hooray, special people, thanks for your time (: And alex, thank you for the treat and spastic pictures! Was really fun.


Yesterday at marina: Kim, Rachel Yong, Lew Xiao Qi, Hannah and Yenny, Joey! Yay thanks for the sakae treat (: Sorry for eating too much, heh heh. Kim, thanks for organising everything! And all of you for your presents and cards, hooray. Great to see you all again. We gotta go out again sometime (:


Jesslyn, thanks again for the card and the two cute things inside!

And thank you best friend for everything (: Too many to count, but the letter was the best. Yup.

My birthday. 2 May.

Which leads me to question, what's the significance of birthdays? A time to be remembered, a time for old friends (who remember) to catch up? A time to reflect on the number of years of existence?

A birthday may be merely a date to people, the significance of another year's passing. I mean, what's the difference between 1st may and 2nd may, it's not like you're a year older. It's just one single day. Another thing, I don't understand midnight birthday wishes. Technically speaking, your birthday is only when you are born. But yup they are nice as well :)

I think I am really different from last year. I've matured a lot. One year ago, I'd be blogging something like: "YAY! Today is my birthday. I'm finally 14, hooray!" Now, I see the siginificance of living, every single detail. Though sometimes it might not be easy, I still love my life!

I understand myself better. I guess I'm not so task/results oriented anymore. Cos so long as I do my best, I know God sees my effort.

The past year has really made me open up my eyes and see the world in a wider perspective. I got to see more of both the evil and good of the world. I got to learn how different people behave when placed in certain situations. I learnt how to appreciate life more, and not grumble so much.
I learnt how to care more. My brain grew in knowledge and intelligence. I became a bit more girly, but still got a long way more to go haha. I know now, that my friends are here for me! Another thing, I'm no longer politically correct. I speak my mind. I've become more daring, I've learnt that being younger than everyone else doesn't mean that I am not as capable of doing a good job as well. I'm still your average kid who likes to play pranks, who loves fun and all. Just that I've learnt when to have fun, when to do the right stuff (although on certain rare occasions I still get carried away)

Every single one of you, you're appreciated. Especially best friend, Audrey, Rachel Yong, Alex, Tianxing, Yi Jun, Shenn Linn, Neha who've made my birthday nice and special! Thanks for the treats! I treasure you all a lot, really. And love you all! Whee. Thank you to the rest, a whole long list of people whom I can't mention by name currently due to lack of time. I appreciate your messages/wishes (:

I thank God for every single one of my friends, old and new. I'm such a blessed girl. Yup today and yesterday I was treated like a princess. It was nice. Yup. Actually a lot of times I am la. I feel loved!

I believe in myself, and I believe in you too.
So long as you believe in yourself first.

And yes, I'm always here to listen to anyone who needs a listening ear.