Proposal: Succesful, plan 1.5 tmr! We will unite and bring down the walls of VJ! And plan 2 will take quite some time and prayer though. But I'm at the point of it though.

The Articulate Mammal elective was fun. Mrteo was so smiley, I got smilier too. Whereas in math class before that I couldn't concentrate at all. Back on bus 13 with Wadee, and we missed a 43 before that because we were waving to people and didn't see the bus. Total spasness. Gotta chiong Chinese soon!

Everything in it's time by Corrinne May. Ah, what a beautiful song (: Oh and I found out today who the person who wrote the message on the school plasma screen was. RobertYeo! The first part of the message goes:
" 2 July 2007 is Youth Day.
There is school.
School will always be here for you. "

And I was staring at it, gaping, wondering why the school was so evil. I didn't manage to catch the second part, so I waited for that announcement to come again. I was eating in the canteen by the way. Anyway, after two minutes or so, the announcement came back on:

"However there will be no lessons and no assembly"

I laughed, and wondered who that person was, that a person in the General Office might be lame enough to write that. Turns out it's MrYeo, PA incharge! The guy who laughs at us. Haha his twisted humour, and chuckles. Okay MrYeo, that was a good one, the best suanning ever (:

Hungry, I come to you for I know you satisfy

I am empty, but I know Your love does not run dry
And so I wait for You so I wait for You

I’m falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You’re all this heart is living for

Broken, I run to You for Your arms are open wide
I am weary, but I know Your touch restores my life
And so I wait for You so I wait for You

--x--
Lord use me for agenda 1.5 and 2!

Nubian Gents '07 Promo

This is so cool,ignore the lady singing in the first part but check out the dance man =) And the best thing is that they're coming down to RiverLife to perform for us on 21st July! So contact me if you wanna come! (:

Well I just was thinking. What's the point of brooding. So be it. Get over it, forget it. I need to get out of this rut la. Pointless. Maybe I don't need you anymore, I don't know? This is so complex, I don't have the brainpower to think about it anymore. Okay chuck this aside till Friday (which I don't know what I will say or think anymore), I have other important plans for this week =) My two powerpacked agendas, with one proposal tomorrow. God be at the centre.

For such a time as this, I'll praise You in the storm. And urmm thanks Chai for the morning message, Crys for the song, Jenson for just being here, Wadee for the bus ride (which i'm so glad I didn;t have to endure alone!) and our plans to go back to TKG next week, Ms Chua for conducting a gay bio lesson that made me laugh like anything. I think I just love Bio. Lessons never fail to cheer me up. Was dozing off during chinese class, but laoshi didn't say anything about it. Phew LA presentations are over too. Kind of screwed things up a little.

Okay now I'll talk about yesterday's Imagineering. We went through a tough 6 months, and it's finally over guys! Thanks for being the best project group ever, you've all been amazing and wonderful. I seriously mean it with every single letter of the word "best". All the deadlines were met. Even though things at the EOS stage were shaky, we managed to crap our way through. The solution stage was the most fun. Yeah we get crazy when we brainstorm. Eg. trumping everyone for I&E. I'm proud of you all =) For all the effort you put in. Esp Leslie, Tianxing and Yuwei. Yeah it's great to see that you all have learnt so much these months in VIP. Though there were some stages where it was plain dry, we managed to keep it going with pure spasness and a bit of nagging. Haha.

Adriel, thanks for being a great group leader, always chipping in to plug any gaps in things. Yes and as Leslie wrote on his blog, saving us! Haha even though our music taste is different, gaying about with S Club 7 and the Backstreet Boys on Tuesday definitely was fun. Working with you in projects is fun man.

Leslie, thanks for the drawings and the funny stuff we do, eg. private conversations during Imag periods and all the smiley faces and funny faces we've pulled at each other. You are not a screw up okay! Don't ever think you are, because our team would be incomplete without any one of our members!

Tianxing, thank you for the dedication and the hard work, especially when you had to cut down your script so much. Haha. Even though you're the quietest, I tell you, you can do it =) You'll settle down fine in IP life. Yeah and thanks for the goodies from China, I love beef jerky.

Yuwei, did I mention that your confidence in what you believe in is amazing? Yeah thanks for doing the pretty much difficult task of the interview. The EOS' you and Tianxing did were good, and they were an opportunity to improve on your english. So I'm glad you all embraced it. Yeah thanks for the thing from China too, it's so cute.

On Monday we drilled in that stuffy room and helped each other cut out parts of the scripts. Tuesday, two long hours of rehearsals in the computer lab and outside the Imagineering studios. The gesture of unity we did in the five minutes before the presentation. We are a team. In every sense of that word. We own V.POD, everyone loves V.POD! I'm sure you all are proud of what we have achieved. The presentation went on with no major hitches, no over-time too.

Cheers to Enigma, I love you all =) And I'm proud to say, at the end of Imagineering, that it rocks. No sarcasm here, just plain respect and honour for this project that has shown me what it is to truly work in a group that encourages each other. Thanks for the memories guys, hope to work again with you all soon. Enigma, forever.

Sent them an email, with extra stuff that I'm not going to post here.

Mission possible, open up the gates. Two more agendas for this week (not projects). I need my sleep for that, considering that last night was an entirely weird sleep. I dreamt of other people's dreams. Weird huh.

& I've realised, being nice to others when I'm depressed does cheer me up. PROPOSAL TOMMOROW WHOOOOO!

Sinking into an abyss
I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know this side of me. I feel like a hypocrite of myself. And I still don't know why. I think it's just everything. And this doesn't drill in. Maybe, just maybe God is trying to teach me something? I don't know. Hurts.

Adrenaline lasts for a short while. Imag people, I enjoyed your company. Thank you for making our presentation a success. And to Yuwei and Tianxing, thanks for the gifts. Gaying about with Adriel and making funny faces at Leslie took my mind off stuff. But when I left school, everything

Crumbled. Broken cookie, anyone?

The terriblest phase, ever. Ow.

I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You

So were You


I need you, God. Saturday was good, but what happened after that? I still remember what you have in store for me. But the plans... To function, How? Carried out one of Your plans today. Supposed to feel good about it. But why don't I?

I feel very left out of everything. The people who used to care the most don't. But thanks Jenson and Chai for your messages, you made me feel not so left out. Especially Chai.
Mom's back.

Love is a choice. Either you love, or you don't. Not a comment reffering to anyone in particular, just something I was thinking about.

Brain in overdrive. My Helmsman report states that I am a thinker. I am, aren't I? Even Adriel agrees. I am also supposedly a cooperative student who seems to "take challenges positively and in her stride". "Reflective learner who is keen on understanding before reacting".

Weird how my teachers call me quiet, "seemingly quiet", "quiet demeanour". I am also supposedly "patient". Am I? Not always. Rachel, Adriel and I are quiet in class only. Teachers, ah, they judge according to classroom situations. How many facets are there of me? You wouldn't know. Not unless you know me inside out. Everyone has their sides. Not two-facedness, but certain situations and people bring out certain qualities in you. There's always the subconscious too.

The only bad comment I got was "improve on the quality of work in her assignments" for Math. Eh! I did my math nicely okay.

My math and science teachers are Cai, Cai, Chia and Chua. New math teacher came in today. Hopefully she's better than Yang.

Evil is not the opposite of good, it's merely the absence of it

What gives?

Twirling
Spinning
Out of control
Tired
Sick
Weary

I can't make it on my own ): Save me. Take it away.

It's 2:17am in the morning on the first day of school and I can't sleep. Things swirling around in my brain.


Good morning to you
You, can't you just get your rest?
No, not now
At least not today

It's been a tough day and my tough day is still going to last. Why didn't they help me properly? Ohwell. Mom's in hospital, probably won't be back for 2-3 days to 1 week. Missed celebration team dinner, took the bus and waited for ages (25 mins), got down from the bus too early to transfer to train, got stuck in a crowded train where fat people blocked my exit, didn't transfer a file to Thai Yong properly, communication breakdown and my mobile crashed on me. A series of very unfortunate events.

Did I mention I hate hospitals? Depressing. I don't know why the thought of stepping into a hospital is so..revolting. Bad experiences. At hospital stairways, on a supposedly the last happy occassion. The day, where I felt _________________. You go fill in the blanks. Don't ask.

But still keeping the smile. God I need you to pull me through tonight and the next two days. Be with me. Thank you Joey and Audrey for being there for me. Sorry for not smiling at first. Appreciate and love you both!

Off to rush my LA. Had other plans, but communication breakdown = more work piled unto me. I wonder if initiative = more work. Thanks Thai Yong anyway for your help, I'd die without it =) Now... just for the powerpoint. And my script, and the compilation of the script. Pray that I won't K-O tomorrow please. Lessons till 340.

Yes God, I need you.

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to turn
I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles
with lemonade

Shucks. Miss us.

Configured my computer to use DNS servers, OpenDNS to be exact. So leeching off them for faster internet speeds. Now I don't have to wait for YouTube to load anymore, hooray. I love tweaking my computer, I'm such a nerd.

Life is difficult, no one said its easy. However, everyone has a choice. You have a choice to face life with a smile, or without one. Facing life with a smile, makes the world a little brighter. You tell others, i will stand strong, i will not let annoying issues in my life to rob me of my smile.

Its not easy to keep it, but the strong, fights and pushes on. You are strong, so make all of us proud of you, by keeping your smile. God keeps his smile, when you keep yours.

So keep your smile, cause you might just have inspired another to keep his too.

Keep your smile, Janel. Keep your smile.

Audrey came over today! (: Was fun. Thank you for your help with Chinese! God I pray you heal my cell members! Get well okay all you sick people, and take care ( Vivian, Rachel Chai, Cheryl Tan, Pau and Dory) Shall try to have powerpacked cell man.

Interesting links I found today:
Where was God during 9/11?

So today I went to Chai's house. Visited Jasmine and Jenson then went to church to pick the mission team up!

So Yasmin, Wadee, Kevin and Gabriel came over today. Watched Babel and got a shock, twice. Babel is gross. Well at least, I'd recommend skipping the Jap girl parts. Yasmin freaked out okay.

Been listening to a lot of John Bevere lately, and learning a lot. Leslie, don't give up on your dreams alright! There's so much more to life.

Btw last week I got a new Abercrombie jacket + 2 Abercrombie shirts ( One cream and one green) as well as a Hollister Co. Butter Me Up tee. And each cost only 17.50 and they are definitely geniune, hooray for me!

I want to care for others, like Jesus cares for me

Mood:ECSTATIC (: - was about to write happy, but then ecstatic is far more apt.

With lots of smiles! Good to see people back on track, good to see the fire returning to Megalife. Power packed service, with more to come in the weeks ahead. V500, V23! Went home with Carissa and Dory. Suddenly life seems so much more carefree, with the exception of the grinch.

I'm sorry if I have been neglecting anyone, I promise I'll make an effort to care more (:

As new dreams have been placed, old dreams remembered, I will work towards fufilling them.
Shake the nations
YES AND AMEN!

The voice of God speaks again, found my way back on track, definitely. Feels good walking back in God's will. Some stuff is still messy, but it'll be sorted out soon, I hope.

Thank you Crys and Cheryl Tan, especially Crys (:

"When one's won over the rest will come like a wave"
This is just the beginning, press on (:

Mugged (or attempted to) with Jenson today at the Atrium & a few cell members. Was refreshing, had a good time. So yeah. Prayer meeting was just... awesome. Probably one of the factors that brought me back to my passion. Went back home on 12 with the company of Dory and Abel (two pretty interesting names) Shall sleep late today, gotta write cards.

I love my cell!
I love cell ministry!
I love touching lives, being part of them (:

One more! Sow and reap, Janel, sow and reap. It's time to take investment to another level.
On another side note relating to this, send revival (:

A word of encouragement for you all:
Stand strong in your faith
And your faith will never fail you.
Press on!

Oh by the way, links to Korea photos:
My Flickr (Incomplete) set
Neha's Flickr (Incomplete) set

Topic number one:
A Grinch

That's what you are
Controlling
Manipulative

Stealing happiness
You take it away
Slowly,
But surely

Sardonic smile.

Do I sense a hint of dictatorship over me?
All boxed up.

I do understand why people decide to revolt against their wonderful leaders, eg. Hitler.
It's a continuous cycle bound to happen in the course of history, isn't it?
Almost unavoidable.

Reference:

I found this today. It's hilarious, period. Speak of the Grinch.

Rules and regulations:

1. Must work hard for the PSLE preliminary examination in early Aug 2004

2. Must work hard and full concentration for the PSLE in early October 2004

3. Submit your timetable of your work on paper to be d

4. Must shown work completion when work is being assigned

5. TV time can have only half an hour only on two weekdays

6. Computer time on weekends only subjected to one hour per session

7. Rudeness (shouting/screaming/answer back) shown will cause 10 minutes of deduction from computer time given during weekends one whenever there are no supplementary classes

8. No more birthday parties from now till after the PSLE final in October 2004

Signed:

Janel: ……………… Dated: …………..

Mom: ……………….. Dated : ………….

Dad: …………………. Dated : ………….

They made me sign it and I had to follow. Shocked? Refer to topic one.
Topic number two:
Life

In the game of life, there are no bystanders, only players or victims.
Which one do you want to be?
Not a victim, I hope.

Topic number three:
Ethics

What's the point of having tests to determine whether kids have Down's syndrome before they are born? Eradicate them, when they have already been brought to life? Breathing, living, humans with a beating heart.

Pointless, I shall say. Let them live. It's not like they steal important jobs, or kill or steal. Give them a chance.

Science- despite my amazement with it, I don't agree with everything. Mind-boggling.

--x--

2 years 9 months you suffered, now you're gone. And I do remember you. Maybe the whole thing set back in on Friday. Well I hope you're enjoying yourself still :) i love you, Dad